What have I even got to say after over a year has gone by?  I'm not even sure what prompted me to sign in after so long in the first place.  I guess I'm reaching the end of my list of ways to avoid getting out of bed to go look for a job.

In the past year.....not very much has changed save my location: from Tallahassee, FL to Laramie, WY.  Yikes.  I got here exactly a week ago today, & last night I sort of felt like, okay, this room I'm in, this is MY room.  This is where I live!  It's still a bit strange though.  At 10am it was 54 degrees here; while it's warmed up since it is still AUGUST.  I am told that the first snowfall will occur within the next month, that if we're lucky there will be a brief warm up period to follow (although I take their use of the word "warm" with a grain of salt), & that the hard freeze will set in by Halloween.  After that it's ice, snow, blizzards, ten pounds of clothes, snowboots, skiing......& a bit of terror on my part, but I guess I'll just have to adapt!

I had a horrific dream last night (or this morning, rather) that I actually forced myself to wake up from.  I don't really want to go into details because it's really terrible, but police were involved, & while I was being interrogated (scared to death), I somehow became a little conscious, realized that I didn't actually have to deal with this, & forced my eyes open.  Unfortunately I didn't save myself from the worst part, but, alas.  I haven't had any nightmares in a long while, none that I recall since I was having the recurring dreams that Nick & sometimes Matt were dying.  Those are my usual nightmares - that someone I love is either dying or in peril - which is part of what made this dream so scary: it was nothing like my usual nightmare.  

So I guess here's to Laramie, snow, no more nightmares, & the motivation to go find a job.

After nooo sleep last night, I opened the store by myself this morning!  Today was my first day opening & closing & being "in charge" all day, & we did over $3000, which is a really good day for us.  I wasn't nervous about running the store, I was only nervous about the alarm, because the last/first time I opened, I set it off & it is loud.  But everything went smoothly, I'm proud of myself, & so glad the day is over. 

Four more day until Matt is home.  I really don't like living alone.  I imagine that at some point in the future I will have to, which terrifies me, because I'm going crazy after less than a week.  I think one of the main problems is that I talk a lot (some might say way too much), & there's hardly anyone around to talk to.  Maybe if it wasn't summer...I miss Chelsea.  Summer so far has been entirely too uneventful, & working is no excuse.  So far, my plans for the rest of the summer are to make lots of trips to the sinkhole & to Alligator Point, to be less dependent on everyone around me (the first mission: learning to drive around Tallahassee by myself without getting lost), to find an amazing apartment no less than a hop skip & a jump away from my apartment for my sister to move into, to convince Matt that we should get a dog, & to read like crazy.  I want to plan more trips - to St. Augustine & Savannah at the very least.  Blah blah blah.

I'm also not dealing with any drama or immaturity this summer.  I refuse. 

I think I'm more addicted to Stacy's Parmesan & Garlic Herb Pita Chips than I am to cigarettes.  I could live off of them.  Seriously.  They're totally worth the awful breath you have afterward.

Oh, & Heather McGovern - I was about to reply to your IM when you signed off - & I'm kind of confused about why you even asked me this - but no, I don't use a hair straightener.  Unfortunately my hair is as straight as it is all on its own.  Also I love you!

I took such a spill down the stairs last night - literally flew from the top to bottom.  A few days ago I also cracked the back of my head on the wooden arm of our futon.  & today at work, I lost my balance & stumbled into a wall.  It's been a really clumsy week so far, even for me. 

Someone should buy me the box set of Full House for my birthday, & give it to me six months early. 

Also:

Brooklyn family court employee: What's your daughter's name?
Mother: Chicago.
Brooklyn family court employee: Like the state?
Mother: Yes.

--Brooklyn Family Court

I had been sleeping so well this past month!  Eight hours a night; it was amazing.  Then the other day I was up until nine am, & it seemed random & I didn't have anything to do the next day so it was okay, but now here I am, still awake & it's nearly six.  I have to work at 12 tomorrow.  a;sldfjsdlfjdjsfj.  I really thought I was finally on a good sleeping schedule that was going to stick for once.  Why doesn't my brain want to sleeeeep?  I can't decide if I should just stay up through work tomorrow or if I should try to go to sleep again.  I'm just wired!  Fuck.

I'm watching a really boring True Life (I'm on steroids, ha), but nothing else is on TV at this hour.  I can't bear to watch one more segment about Beirut or Myanmar on the news, I just can't.  It's too sad.  & I'm electioned out.  In some ways I think the media access we have now leads to more overkill than it helps.  If I have to see one more presidential candidate give a speech about how they're going to change the world, I'll scream.

This post has been one big complaint so I'm trying to think of a happy note to end on & I'm drawing a blank.  Let me think.  Indiana Jones is coming out soon?  Sorry, that's all I've got.  Oh, & this was on Overheard in NY earlier:

Little girl: Dad. Dad. Dad.
Dad: Stop pulling on me. What?
Little girl, pointing up at an enormous black man: He looks like a big chocolate bar!
Dad, with a forced grin: She's five.

--Line, Grace's Market Place

hahahahahaha.

    Before I had my jaw surgery, my oral surgeon took out my top wisdom teeth because they would have been in the way during the surgery; he decided against taking out my bottom ones because he thought it was unnecessary.  My right one isn't in all the way & it's been hurting for the last two days so I looked up what exactly it is when a wisdom tooth is impacted just now, expecting to find out that I was fine.  What I actually found out was that it might be a "partially erupted impacted tooth" - apparently there are a bunch of types.  It sounds like I definitely have something that starts with a P which makes your gum sore around the tooth but it could either mean it's just not in all the way yet or that I have to have it taken out.  & I swear, if I have to go in for a third oral surgery I will not be a happy person.  

    I'm starting to get really excited because tomorrow morning I'm leaving to go home for the weekend!  I'm still kind of uuuugh because, of course, I haven't started packing yet...um.  Tomorrow!  It's going to be a pretty busy weekend because it's Kelly's birthday & we've got plaaaans.  I'm most excited for THE BEACH on Friday.  I will come home with an amazing tan.  I will.  Matt can't come though, sad.  Film school ate his life.
    We got Netflix a few days ago so we've just started watching The West Wing & I'm already obsessed.  It's ER in the White House.  Rob Lowe!  Netflix is brilliant though; I forgot how amazing it was.  We can even watch episodes of The Facts of Life online.  It's a good replacement for digital cable, though I do still miss my DiscoveryKids & LOGO. 
    I really have nothing to talk about.  I did have an encounter with a psychic last week.  I went to Chik-fil-a with Matt & I think Evan maybe or Nick & the man who rang me up was this nice old guy.  He asked me how many sauces I wanted for my nuggets & I asked for two since I had an 8-pack.  He said, "Take three," & I tried to decline but he said, "No, take three, you'll get home & realize you need another one."  At the time I thought he was just being generous & meant I'd realize I wanted more sauce than I thought.  BUT.  When I got home, the first sauce pack I opened exploded all over me (gross) & I TOTALLY NEEDED THE THIRD ONE.  He knew.  Matt thinks he was just being nice but Matt also thinks a poltergeist took the bag of chips he is positive he left on the couch when I know he probably just ate them & forgot.  We Ouija'ed with no success.  Anyway. 

Oh - from Overheard in New York:


Woman talking to friend: So this Chinese guy told me he was speaking Vietnamese. I never knew that Vietnam was in china! I felt so ignorant after that.

--St. Mark's & 1st Ave

    I would totally still be asleep right now were it not for someone calling me at 930am.  Someone who withheld their number!  Who prank calls people in the morning?  Also, in an unrelated note - I really don't understand why it seems that no one knows how to write multiple postscripts!  After the first P.S., it's not P.S.S.  What does that mean?  Post script script?  It's P.P.S.  Post post script!  Why does no one else remember how to do this properly?  Everyone's P.S.S.ing all over the place.

    Other than that I'm just really excited for Doctor Who to start in a week!  Even if that whatshername bride skank is going to be there the whole time.  I just love me some David Tennant!  I was watching a YouTube clip of him on some British show called The Friday Night Project which I'd never heard of before but the hosts were reading him posts from a Doctor Who porn website (which he was appalled by) - & what the hell is wrong with people?  Doctor Who porn?  I shouldn't be surprised; Matt once showed me a fanfiction site that had fanfiction about literally every book or movie you'd ever heard of.  IT EVEN HAD FANFICTION ABOUT SOLITAIRE GAMES.  Seriously, like "the next card was an Ace of Hearts, & I moved it to the top row"!  Of course that wasn't porn but it seems like the majority of it is.  Especially the Harry Potter stuff; those people are craaazy.  Hooking up random characters, teachers & students....it's just so weird to me.  It would never occur to me to write porn about my favorite characters in a book.  Or movie.  Or TV show!  The Internet has done some amazing things but...


I can't wait for summer!!!

"List of Demands" - Saul Williams


Also, go searching around Youtube for episodes of "Kenny vs Spenny", this Canadian show that I guess they're starting to show on Comedy Central - because I'm equally obsessed with that.  It's fucking hilarious.  I'm just too lazy to post anymore videos.

    I've been really into reading blogs lately, which is just weird since I've never been before.  I've just done a survey of my links at the top & four of the ten are blogs.  If you count the daily comic, five.  Even weirder is that two of them are fashion blogs, of all things.  Honestly. 
(These are the four I'm reading right now, if anyone's interested: Krisatomic, Daddy Likey, The Year in Pictures, & The Sartorialist - the second & fourth are the fashion blogs, but the fourth I really only go to for the pictures, not the comments.)
   
    In other news, Tallahassee is boring when no one's around (but that isn't really news, is it, Tallahassee's always boring).  I saw Nick for a bit last night but right now I'm so exhausted I don't want to think about doing anything but eating something delicious, having a glass of wine, & watching a movie before falling asleep super early (pleeeease) & getting at least ten hours of sleep.  I've been averaging two - three for the past two weeks so ten won't even make a dent in catching up, but I have to work all day tomorrow so I need to recharge!  Speaking of work, by the time I get a day off, I'll have been working fifteen days straight!  Oh the joys of staying in town to work while everyone else is Spring Breaking.  I really wish I could spend the monster paycheck I'll get, but I know that every cent needs to make it's way to my savings account.  Ugh.  We just got lots of amaaazing new dresses & tops in at the store, too.  Of course, my favorites are the most expensive brands we carry but I might let myself get one thing - I get a discount, after all.  I hate being poor.

Also, to Howard Dean: please suck it up & let Florida & Michigan's delegates' votes count.  Do we really want to force a dual-ticket/a situation in which one of our candidates has to step aside in order to have any chance of getting a Democrat in there?  Clearly Florida & Michigan are at fault, but PLEASE STOP ACTING LIKE A BUNCH OF TODDLERS & FIGURE IT OUT!  Everyone's got their arms crossed & their feet stomping & none of this is good for the country.  Seriously.

& lastly, why do people in high profile positions still think they can get away with breaking the law/doing anything scandalous?  SOMEONE ALWAYS FINDS OUT.  Especially with the internet.  Idiots.

So basically I don't sleep anymore.  Instead, I chain smoke & watch stupid TV (Sister Sister?  Saved by the Bell en Espanol?  Late night TV sucks).  I haven't gone to sleep at all tonight.  Today.  Whatever.  I didn't last night, either, but I did have a 2 1/2 hour nap sometime in the late afternoon.  & yes, I've tried everything I can think of.  Yes, it sucks.  I'm aware.

I suddenly have the urge to watch Closer.  Do not ask me why.  I also want a haircut.  & I want to visit home.  & I WANT TO SLEEP.

I have yet to see a Feist video that I don't love, but the one for "I Feel It All" is so amazing.

I finally saw No Country for Old Men & it was just as good as everyone said it was.  Some of it was so gruesome (hello broken arm at the end erlaaaack) but I still loved it.  There were two girls that came in 3/4 of the way through the movie & sat right in front of us, & one of them repeatedly said, "Ha ha!" instead of laughing every time something even remotely funny happened (& sometimes just after someone said something).  I've found that as my sleep decreases, so too does my patience.  Which I had next to none of to begin with anyway. 

None of this is very interesting.  I need to find other insomniacs to be awake with.  Awake Anonymous or something.  That should totally exist if it doesn't already but I bet the Tallahassee chapter would just be full of meth addicts & stressed out college kids.